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Friday, March 22, 2013

Waiting for a Diagnosis

Written March 20, 2013 Don't you find that waiting can be one of the most difficult times? It is so hard to wait. We are used to instant answers. When people ask me questions, I sometimes find myself thinking "did you google that?" Hello, Rebekah. Sometimes people want to just converse and ask questions. Google doesn't have the emotional connection of a real life person. :-) Right. So, I'm waiting with very little patience. And, I would love to ask for your prayers. This week, I discovered a lump in my right breast. I assumed it was nothing, but called my OB/GYN office to check. They saw me for an early appointment yesterday morning. There is definitely a lump. It's not my imagination. It's real and it's probably nothing. A cyst, perhaps? But, either way, I will have a mammogram (first one of those for me) and ultrasound on Friday to diagnose. I know that the likelihood is that it is nothing. But, it's still causing me a lot of anxiety. "For I know the plans I have for you" says the Lord “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. And, you will find me when you seek me with all of your heart." Jeremiah 29:11 These words keep playing in my head. I drive and say them over and over again. Except, I pray to God and tell him "You know the plans You have for me. Plans to prosper and not to harm me, plans to give me a hope and a future. I call on you and pray to You and You listen to me. Thank You for listening. I find You. I seek You. I love You." I may get great news on Friday or not so great news. Either way, God's plan is not to harm me. And, whether it's great or not so great, he's going to be right there with me and I will be seeking Him with all of my heart. Update March 22, 2013: I received the happy results this morning. It is "a cyst." No cause for alarm. Bless you. -Rebekah

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